escapism

who does not want to escape from reality, even for a little while? works have been piling up and im getting stressed by all the things that are happening around me. i wish i could pause the time and i could relax adequately. i wish i could stop dealing with school and the people who surround me.

what do i actually want? for a person who is living quite far from family, all i want is somebody to lean on. might sound cliche but it can't get any truer. things will get hard and by that time what you need is definetely comfort from your closest person. but what if your "closest person" doesn't understand you?

home is where your heart belongs

home is where you belong. when you have a bad day, you remember home, and suddenly it makes everything a little bit better. when you have a good day, you remember home, because you would like to share every little thing that has happened to your home. maybe they don't really have anything, but they have love and they provide the best shelter for your body, mind and soul.

life might seem easy without home for a little while. but you know you miss them when a simple meal would remind you of them. "how nice would it be if i am enjoying this with them." 

rant

lol hi i just had to come here and rant a little since no one is going to read this lol.

so ive just started my school in grade 11 and honestly i cant feel the high school hype anymore lol.

remember when people say high school is the best part of school? 

now my high school life is like hell lmao

i am literally being watched everyday. like i cant hang out with the guys without having this guy getting angry or mad. honestly idek why he is so narrow-minded and cant move on with the mistakes that ive committed and he doesnt even accept the way i am. im so stressed actually. i cant chat with the guys just because he doesnt chat with the girls. if i say what im thinking to him, confirm, he will get mad and he will say im the bad guy here. for real bro, fuck it. im tired like super tired and super stressed. my school works are always pilled up and then theres him, who doesnt let me do things the way i wanna do. does he not realise that he is tying me down? even in studying, he doesnt let me study in my own pace like fuck u bro. im trying to improve and what he will do is just raising his voice at me and say something mean to me like jesus fucking christ. all i wanna do is have fun....... i wanna have fun with my friends (the guys too). does he think that im neglecting him? its totally bc how he is like this that im taking any chances that i see. always complains at my clothing even tho they are perfectly fine!!!! asshole ugh. and he doesnt even want me to post photos bc he thinks if i do that, it means im an attention seeker.huh funny. and he said im disgusting bc i was wearing a fucking crop top lol rly m8?????????????????????????????? 1000000% done with him. im done.