2016 and im still tired

hello! bet who's feeling tired. its been a year since i last posted but meh i dont really care so lets just write. no one's gonna read this anyway.

im so so so so tired with my life. including my school, home and also the society. im never good with words. maybe im pms-ing so im writing this post. i havent even finished my maths project. i cant even do a question. i wonder when i get to use the actual thing in real life oh my god. so stressed no joke. course exams are starting on monday and the first paper is actually chemistry just kill me. and my mom is here with me is just making me feel like i have no privacy left. i cant focus on studying ugh. she keeps on trying to correct me or something idek oh my god shes ocd or what. some things she did it for my own good, i know. but please just!!! please!!! give me some time alone.

still struggling with my maths project. actually its an assignment. due tomorrow. great! im contemplating whether i should just do it at school during the two periods of physics. we never study anyway during physics anyway.

the main thing abt this post is; when im feeling stressed, i actually want someone to comfort me? like telling me things are going to be okay. but he doesn't get it. i dont know. i also want attention from him as much as he wants from me. but i just cant tell him. im happy as long as hes happy. right. i need to remember that. he wont even see this post so ill just write what i want him to do.
i really want him to be more understanding. whenever i say that to him, it is always when we are quarelling. which makes things even worse. but if i say, he wont even remember. i bought a watch, he asked me what for, ahh his mood went down bc i bought a watch for myself. like i also want to spoil myself in a while. i like cute things. he doesnt get it. i know he spend his money wisely but T^T
i want him to be more patient not only to me but everyone. he gets work up easily smh that guy. i always doubt whether i can take it or not when hes teaching me smth abt a lesson bc he snaps easily. he will think that i dont want him to teach me bc of my slow response when im actually processing what hes saying and then his mood went downhill. sighs. ky ky.

i wanna sleep. goodnight.

HI IM STILL ALIVE

hello what the fuck its 2015 and i left this blog for god knows how long lmao and so i came back to see how things were going on and then i tried to write a new post,, u know what happened next?? i accidentally deleted all of my posts gOD DAMN i thought all of it were drafts but it was the opposite im so dumb like literally!!!! so pissed at self oh my god. 

ok enough ranting now

hm ive just finished my national exam a few days ago and i have  so much free time now praise the lord (more time for me to unleash my weebness)

a lot of things happened like ive applied for a new school in the capital and i got enrolled in it even though i did so badly on the entrance exams lmao aaand I CANT BELIEVE IM GOING TO ATTEND THE  NEW SCHOOL IN 2 MONTHS OOOOOOOOOOOO SHIT

and then how im not active anymore in the exo fandom (and joined the anime hell) 

tao's leaving following krishan. things are so chaotic oh my i still love sehun

by the way, im so excited for yamamori mika's new series oh my god im literally in love with  the heroine aahhhhh she's rly pretty and the feminine kind of type haha the guy's face is still unknown but nevermind!!!! its going to rock i can feel it like hirunaka no ryuusei (whispers mamura daiki i luv) is already this good AHHHH IM SO EXCITED !!!1!!

i think thats all for today. i dont think ill be able to update like how i used to be bc lAZY HAHA SPARE ME i know no one is gonna read this anyway~ least but not last, happy mother's day to all the moms out there!! have a good day adios! /smart pose/