hello! bet who's feeling tired. its been a year since i last posted but meh i dont really care so lets just write. no one's gonna read this anyway.
im so so so so tired with my life. including my school, home and also the society. im never good with words. maybe im pms-ing so im writing this post. i havent even finished my maths project. i cant even do a question. i wonder when i get to use the actual thing in real life oh my god. so stressed no joke. course exams are starting on monday and the first paper is actually chemistry just kill me. and my mom is here with me is just making me feel like i have no privacy left. i cant focus on studying ugh. she keeps on trying to correct me or something idek oh my god shes ocd or what. some things she did it for my own good, i know. but please just!!! please!!! give me some time alone.
still struggling with my maths project. actually its an assignment. due tomorrow. great! im contemplating whether i should just do it at school during the two periods of physics. we never study anyway during physics anyway.
the main thing abt this post is; when im feeling stressed, i actually want someone to comfort me? like telling me things are going to be okay. but he doesn't get it. i dont know. i also want attention from him as much as he wants from me. but i just cant tell him. im happy as long as hes happy. right. i need to remember that. he wont even see this post so ill just write what i want him to do.
i really want him to be more understanding. whenever i say that to him, it is always when we are quarelling. which makes things even worse. but if i say, he wont even remember. i bought a watch, he asked me what for, ahh his mood went down bc i bought a watch for myself. like i also want to spoil myself in a while. i like cute things. he doesnt get it. i know he spend his money wisely but T^T
i want him to be more patient not only to me but everyone. he gets work up easily smh that guy. i always doubt whether i can take it or not when hes teaching me smth abt a lesson bc he snaps easily. he will think that i dont want him to teach me bc of my slow response when im actually processing what hes saying and then his mood went downhill. sighs. ky ky.
i wanna sleep. goodnight.
